THAI-LEE’S LIFE THROUGH MY EYES

June 28, 2010 I will never for get the day when I received THAI-LEE diagnosis from his doctor at the Marcus Autism Center in Atlanta Georgia. I was shock at how easily the words flowed from her mouth. After all, hearing that your child has #Autism is a life changing sentence. But it seemed so natural to the Doctor. It really disturbed me for a while, There was no sorrowful look on her face. I didn’t hear “ I’ am very sorry but .... “ NOTHING! “ It was as if she was checking me out at Publix and was telling me the price of my bill.

I honestly excepted so much more. I didn’t know what to expect, but I expected more. I did except to hear I’m very sorry but ....... “ instead of that, I just heard ; “ Your son has #Autism. We will write you a letter to your insurance and for your keep. I recommend speech therapy, occupational therapy, and applied behavior analysis (ABA). Wow! That’s it! Just like that! Where do we go from here ? My world stopped! Just like that I drove home with Thai-lee, not to mention I was 7 months pregnant with Ayden-lee. I was trying to hold grips of what just happened. I pulled over on the 285 east on the Atlanta highway and parked the car for over two hours a cried my eyes out. Mentally, and Emotionally I was so broken. The pain hit me like a tsunami wave. I honestly don’t know how I got through each day. I blamed myself for Thai’s autism, I asked myself every day what could I have done differently. I dissected every detail of my pregnancy and his first year of my life, trying to pin point where I went wrong. I cried all the time, I cried in the shower. I cried myself to sleep. I cried driving him to therapy 5 days a week. I literally cried all the time. Months after his diagnosis I realized I was I was only torturing myself. I still find myself wondering from time to time , but I think it’s just simply human nature. Nonetheless, I live daily in the acceptance stage and the life that I have made for my boys and I couldn’t be better. AUTISM , Has pushed me and pulled me, drained me and fueled me, beat me up and strengthened me, hurt me and helped me. It's been a part of my Growth and no kidding I'm extremely "THANKFUL"💙🧩💪🏽🙌🏾🙏🏽.